They say that I am a loner and that may be true... I like the quiet peace I can get only in solitude. I treasure my time alone... sitting in some park or out in the middle of nowhere.... surrounded by people coming and going or by the creatures that live outside these concrete prisons we have built.
I am never without company, and yet always alone... alone with my thoughts... alone with myself.
All that I seek is happiness... But is that easy?
To seek happiness, one must control desire. And to control desire, one must seek peace of mind. Desire is perhaps one of the darkest road blocks, changing one completely who he actually is. Essentially the demon inside me, fighting for what "it" wants. And when desire gets strong, it starts controlling one from inside, messing with the mind, making one crave for what it craves.
Actually I do not seek happiness... rather I seek peace.
The human mind is a demon of its own sort, working in part with desire. Then there is also another part of the mind that is right. The two duel it out, one winning and the other losing. The war must end, for desire won't be controlled if the conflict still rages within one! The battles will cease only when peace of mind is achieved, peace being the sibling of happiness.
If I find happiness in life, peace of mind will come swiftly. But the challenge is to keep the happiness alive and never to let greed and desire take control again.
Now how do I create happiness? Or where would I find it?
Should I still keep on searching happiness in others? Or should I search it within me?
Because the only one who would never leave me alone is "ME"...
